“Raphaël akaberekwa munaKurume 21, 2020. Uyu ndiye mwana wangu wekutanga. Nhasi, ndichiri muwadhi yevakadzi vanosununguka, nokuti mwana wangu ane chirwere chejaundice, iyo kwenguva pfupi isingapfuuri pasinei nemishonga. Handigoni kumirira kusvika kumba, kunyange pano zvinhu zvose zvakafamba zvakanaka uye kutarisira kwaiva kukuru. Handisi kumirira kuwana baba vaRaphael, vasingakwanise kuuya kuzotishanyira nekuda kwedenda reCovid uye kuvharirwa.
Ndainge ndasarudza maternity level 3 iyi nekuti ndaiziva kuti ndaizova nenhumbu yakaoma, nekuda kweutano. Saka ndakabatsirwa nekutarisisa. Apo dambudziko reCoronavirus rakatanga kupararira muFrance, ndakanga ndava nevhiki dzinenge 3 kuti nguva ipere, yakarongerwa March 17. Pakutanga, ndakanga ndisinganyanyi kunetseka, ndakazviudza kuti ndaizosununguka sezvatakanga taronga. , nomumwe wangu parutivi rwangu, tiende kumba. Normal, chii. Asi nekukasira, zvakazonetsa, denda rakanga richiwedzera. Munhu wese aitaura nezvazvo. Panguva iyi, ndakatanga kunzwa makuhwa, ndikaziva kuti kusununguka kwangu kwaisazoenda sezvandaifunga.
Kusununguka kwakarongwa muna March 17. Asi mwana wangu akanga asingadi kubuda! Pandakanzwa chiziviso chakakurumbira chokuvharirwa usiku hwakapfuura, ndakati mumwoyo mangu “Kuchapisa!” “. Mangwana acho ndakazoonana nachiremba wezvekuzvara. Ikoko ndiko kwaakandiudza kuti baba vacho vaisavapo. Kwandiri kwakanga kuri kuodzwa mwoyo kukuru, kunyange zvazvo zvirokwazvo ndainzwisisa chisarudzo ichocho. Chiremba akandiudza kuti akanga achironga tsoro nokuda kwaMarch 20. Akareurura kwandiri kuti vakanga vachitya kuti ndakasununguka vhiki raitevera, apo denda rakanga richizoputika, richizadza zvipatara navachengeti. Saka ndakaenda kuwadhi yevanenge vachisununguka manheru aMarch 19. Ikoko, pakati pousiku, ndakatanga kuva nemarwadzo. Mangwana acho masikati, ndakaendeswa kuimba yebasa. Kushanda kwakatora maawa angangoita makumi maviri nemana uye mwana wangu akazvarwa husiku hwaKurume 24-20 pakati pehusiku. Kutaura chokwadi, handina kunzwa kuti "coronavirus" yakakanganisa kusununguka kwangu, kunyangwe zvakandiomera kuenzanisa sezvo ari mwana wangu wekutanga. Vaive vakanaka chaizvo. Vakangozvikurumidzisa zvishoma, kwete zvine chekuita nazvo, asi zvine chekuita nenyaya dzehutano hwangu, uye nekuti ndiri paropa, uye ndaifanira kuvamisa kuti vasununguke. Uye kuita kuti iende nekukurumidza, ndaive neoxytocin. Kwandiri, mugumisiro mukuru wedenda pakusununguka kwangu, kunyanya kuti ndakanga ndiri ndoga kubva pakutanga kusvika pakupedzisira. Zvakandishungurudza. Ndainge ndakakombwa nechikwata chevachiremba chokwadi, asi mumwe wangu akanga asipo. Ndiri ndega muimba yebasa, foni yangu isisabatike, handina kana kukwanisa kumuzivisa. Zvakanga zvakaoma. Sezvineiwo, boka rezvokurapa, vananyamukuta, vanachiremba, vakanga vakanaka chaizvo. Hapana kana nguva yandakanzwa ndasiiwa, kana kukanganikwa nekuti paive nedzimwe emergency zvine chekuita nedenda iri.
Ehe, matanho ekuchengetedza akasimbiswa zvakanyanya mukati mekusununguka kwangu: munhu wese aipfeka mask, vaigeza maoko avo nguva dzese. Ini zvangu ndakapfeka maski ndichiita zvepidural, ndopandakatanga kutunda beche richibuda. Asi iyo mask haina kundisimbisa zvachose, isu tinoziva zvakanyanya kuti zero njodzi haipo, uye kuti hutachiona hunotenderera zvakadaro. Kune rimwe divi, ini ndakanga ndisina bvunzo yeCovid-19: Ndakanga ndisina zviratidzo uye ndisina chikonzero chaicho chekunetseka, kupfuura chero munhu chero zvakadaro. Ichokwadi kuti ndakambobvunza zvakawanda, ndakamboita kakuvhunduka ndichiti nechemumoyo “asi ndikaibata ndopa mwana here? “. Sezvineiwo zvese zvandainge ndaverenga zvakandisimbisa. Kana iwe usiri "panjodzi", hazvina ngozi kune amai vechidiki pane kune mumwe munhu. Wese munhu aiwanikwa kwandiri, akateerera, uye akajeka muruzivo rwandakapihwa. Ukuwo ndainzwa kuti vainge vakabatikana netarisiro yekuti vanhu vairwara vainge voda kusvika. Ndine fungidziro yekuti havana vashandi vashoma, nekuti kune vanhu vanorwara pakati pevashandi vechipatara, vanhu vasingakwanisi kuuya nechikonzero chimwe kana chimwe. Ndakanzwa tension iyi. Uye ndazorodzwa chaizvo kuti ndasununguka pazuva iroro, “masaisai” aya asati asvika kuchipatara. Ndinogona kutaura kuti ndakaita "rombo rakanaka munhamo yangu", sezvavanotaura.
Iye zvino, kupfuura zvose handigoni kumirira kusvika kumba. Apa, zvakandiomera mupfungwa. Ndinofanira kubata nehurwere hwemwana ndega. Kushanya kunorambidzwa. Mumwe wangu anonzwa kure nesu, zvakamuomerawo, haazive zvekuita kuti atibatsire. Hongu ndicharamba ndichigara hangu, chakakosha ndechekuti mwana wangu apore. Vanachiremba vakandiudza kuti: “Covid kana kuti kwete Covid, tine varwere uye tiri kuvachengeta, usazvinetse, tiri kukurapa. Zvakandisimbisa, ndaitya kuti ndaizonzi ndiende kunogadzirisa nyaya dzakakomba dzine chekuita nedenda iri. Asi kwete, handiende kusvika mwana wangu apora. Muwadhi yemadzimai, makadzikama zvikuru. Handinzwe nyika yekunze nekunetseka kwayo nezvedenda. Ndinenge ndichinzwa sekunge hakuna hutachiona kunze uko! Mumikoto, hapana watinosangana naye. Hapana kushanya kwemhuri. Iyo yekudyira yakavharwa. Vanaamai vese vanogara mumakamuri avo nevana vavo. Zvakafanana naizvozvo, unofanira kugamuchira.
Ndinozivawo kuti kunyangwe kumba kwedu kushanya hakuite. Tichafanira kumirira! Vabereki vedu vanogara kune mamwe matunhu, uye nekuvharirwa, hatizive kuti vachakwanisa rinhi kusangana naRaphael. Ndaida kunoona mbuya vangu vari kurwara chaizvo ndinovazivisa mwana wangu. Asi izvozvo hazvibviri. Muchiitiko ichi, zvinhu zvose zvakanyatsonaka. ” Alice, amai vaRaphaël, mazuva mana
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