Mukati
Nyaya yakasimba pamusoro pekurerwa
“Chishuwo chekurerwa nevabereki vasiri vavo chakatangira paudiki. Kugamuchirwa kwaiva chikamu chenhoroondo yemhuri yangu. Sekuru vangu vandainamata vaive mwana wembereko, vakasiiwa vatova ne3 days. Ndakakurira muSarcelles mumakore ekuma70, guta rine vanhu vakasiyana-siyana raiva nevanhu vakawanda vezvitendero zvakasiyana-siyana. Sezvandaigara munzvimbo yesinagogi, vamwe vandaitamba navo vaiva vedzinza reAshkenazi neSephardic. Vana ava vakagara nhaka yekutapwa uye Shoah. Pandaiva nemakore 9, ndinoyeuka ndichiona vana, zvikurukuru nherera, vachisvika mukirasi yangu pashure peHondo yeVietnam. Mudzidzisi akatikumbira kuti tivabatsire kubatanidza. Ndichiona vana vose vakabviswa misha iyi, ndakazvivimbisa ndimene: kurera mwana anotambura pandaiva ndakura.. Pa 35, zera repamutemo panguva yataigona kutanga maitiro, ndakasarudza kuenda kune iyo, ndoga. Sei kuRussia? Pakutanga, ndakanyorera Vietnam neEthiopia, ndidzo chete nyika mbiri dzaipa kurerwa kumwe chete, ipapo, panguva ino, pakanga paine mukana weRussia. Mudhipatimendi randaigara, basa raiita kuti vana vokuRussia varerwe nevabereki vasiri vavo rakabvumirwa uye ndakakwanisa kunyorera.
Pashure pezviitiko zvakawanda, chikumbiro changu chakabudirira
Mamwe mangwanani, ndakafonerwa ndakamirirwa kwenguva refu, zuva rimwe chetero amai vangu vakanga vachivhiyiwa nokuda kwegomarara ravo rezamu. Mumwe musikana ane makore 6 nehafu akanga akandimirira mumusha unochengeterwa nherera muSt. Mwedzi mishomanana gare gare, ndine chivimbo muchiitiko ichi, ndakamhara kuRussia kuti ndinosangana nemwanasikana wangu. Nastia aive akanaka kupfuura zvandaifungidzira. Nyarai zvishoma, asi paakaseka chiso chake chakapenya. Ndakafungidzira maronda akavigwa kuseri kwenyemwerero yake yokunyara, nhanho yake yokuzengurira uye muviri wake usina simba. Kuti ndive amai vekasikana aka ndicho chaiva chishuwo changu chikuru, ndaisakundikana. Panguva yandaigara kuRussia, takatanga kuzivana zvishoma nezvishoma, ndakanga ndisingadi kumumhanyira. Ichando chakatanga kutsemuka, Nastia, akadzorwa zvinyoro nyoro, akabuda mukunyarara kwake ndokuzvirega achikundwa nemanzwiro. Kuvepo kwangu kwaiita kunge kwakamudzikamisa, akange asisaite zvekuvhunduka sepamusha wenherera.
Ndainge ndave kure nekufungidzira kuti aive ambofamba sei chaizvo
Ndaiziva kuti mwanasikana wangu akanga aita mhirizhonga muupenyu: akasiiwa aine 3 months mumusha wenherera uye apora ari 3 naamai vake vekumubereka. Pandakaverenga mutongo wokurambidzwa kwevabereki zuva rimwe chete tisati tadzoka, ndakaona kuti nyaya yake yakanga ine ngwavaira. Mwanasikana wangu aigara naamai pfambi, chidhakwa uye chisimba, pakati pemarara, mapete nemakonzo. Varume vairara mufurati, mapati ekunwa ayo dzimwe nguva aigumira mukugadzirisa zvibodzwa, akaitika pakati pevana. Arohwa uye aine nzara, Nastia aiona izvi zvinyadzi zuva nezuva. Aizozvivaka sei patsva? Vhiki dzakatevera kusvika kwedu kuFrance, Nastia akanyura mukusuwa kukuru uye akanyarara. Adimburwa rurimi rwake, akanzwa ari ega, asi paakabuda munhamo yake, aingova nechido chimwe chete chokuenda kuchikoro. Kana ndirini, ndaora mwoyo, pasina kuvapo kwomwana wangu, ndakaedza zvisina maturo kupedza mazuva angu ezororo rokurerwa.
Kudzokera kuchikoro kwakamuita kuti adzoke
Nastia akada kuziva, akanzwa nyota yekuziva nekuti aive akurumidza kunzwisisa kuti ndiyo yega nzira yekuti abude muchimiro chake. Asi kupinda chikoro kwakakonzera kuderera zvachose maari: akatanga kukambaira nemakumbo mana, aifanira kudyiswa, akanga asingachatauri. Aifanira kudzokorora chikamu chouduku chaakanga asina kurarama. Mumwe chiremba wevana akandiudza kuti kugadzirisa dambudziko iri ndaigona kuedza nzira yemuviri. Akandiyambira kuti ndigeze nemwana wangu kuitira kuti akwanise kudzorera zvose zvisina kusikwa nekuti ndakanga ndisina kumubereka. Uye zvakashanda! Mushure mekugeza mashoma, akabata muviri wangu uye zvakamubatsira kuti awanezve chivimbo, kumuwana 7 years.
Mwanasikana wangu aindifarira chaizvo, aigara achitsvaga kuonana kwangu, kunyangwe kwaari zvaive zvisiri nyore. Pakutanga, kubatana kwemuviri kwaive nechisimba: aisaziva kuve munyoro. Pane imwe nguva yaaigara achikumbira kuti ndimurove. Zvikumbiro zvake zvekusimbirira zvandaitya zvaiita kuti ndisanzwe zvakanaka. Ndizvo chete zvaigona kumusimbisa nekuti ndiyo yega nzira yaaiziva kuRussia. Sezvineiwo, masimba masimba akatangwa. Ndaifanira kusimba pandisingadi. Kana watora mwana ane mutoro, unofanira kutarisana nezvakaitika kare. Ndakanga ndizere nemoyo wakanaka, ndaida kumuperekedza muupenyu hwake hutsva nerudo, kunzwisisa uye mutsa, asi Nastia akakweva nehope dzake dzinotyisa, zvipoko uye mhirizhonga iyi yaaive mwana. Zvakatora makore maviri kuti hukama hwedu hudzikame uye rudo rwedu kune mumwe nemumwe ruzoratidzwa.
Ndakazvitora kuti ndisazorasika
Mwanasikana wangu paakatanga kuisa mazwi kukurwadziwa kwake kuti azvisunungure kubva mukutya kwaimutambudza, zvaakandizarurira zvaive zvisingafungidzike. Amai vake vekumubereka, tsotsi, vakanga vamusvibisa zvachose nokubaya murume pamberi pake uye kumuita kuti ave nemhosva yechiito ichi. Haana kuzvinzwira urombo, pane zvinopesana, pasina manzwiro akajeka, aida kuzvisunungura kubva pane izvi zvinotyisa zvekare. Ndakarwadziwa nezvakazarurwa zvake. Munguva idzi, iwe unofanirwa kuve netsitsi uye fungidziro kuti uwane mhinduro. Pasina kuvenga kana rusaruro, ndakaita nepese pandaigona napo kudzinga madhimoni ake. Ndakaisa hurongwa hwedzidzo hwese padyo nezvisikwa nemhuka kuitira kuti awane hudiki uye kusava nemhosva. Pakave nekukunda kwechokwadi uye kumwe kwechinguvana. Asi zvakapfuura hazvifi. “
* “Unoda amai vatsva here? - Amai-mwanasikana, nyaya yekurerwa ”, Editions La Boîte à Pandore.