Mukati
The test is positive but baba vaenda. Vatakurwa nemucheche ari kukura ari mavari, vanaamai ava vomunguva yemberi vanotsemuka pakati pekufara uye kunzwa vasiyiwa. Uye ivo vari vega vanosangana neultrasound, kosi yekugadzirira, kuchinja kwemuviri… Chokwadi kwavari, uyu mwana asingatarisirwe chipo cheupenyu.
“Shamwari dzangu dzaisanditsigira”
Emily : “Mwana uyu haana kurongerwa zvachose. Ndakanga ndava nemakore matanhatu tichidanana nababa vacho patakarambana. Nguva pfupi yapfuura, ndakaziva kuti ndaiva nepamuviri… Kubva pakutanga, ndaida kuichengeta. Ndakashaya kuti ndomuudza sei mudiwa wangu zvachose, ndaimutya. Ndaiziva zvangu kuti hatichave vaviri nyangwe tiine mwana. Ndakamuudza mushure memwedzi mitatu. Akagamuchira nhau zvakanaka, akatofara zvake. Asi, nekukasira, akatya, akanzwa kunge asingakwanisi kuita zvese izvozvo. Saka ndakazviona ndave ndega. Uyu mwana aikura mandiri ndiye akava musimboti wehupenyu hwangu. Ndakasara naye chete, ndainge ndafunga kumuchengeta against all odds. Vanaamai vega havatarisirwe zvakanaka. Nyangwe kana uchiri mudiki. Ndakaitwa kuti ndinzwisise kuti ndakaita mwana ndega, udyire, kuti ndaisafanira kumuchengeta. Ini neshamwari dzangu hatichazoonana uye pese pandinoedza kuvaudza nezve zvandiri kusangana nazvo, ndinorovera madziro ... Kunetseka kwavo kunogumira kumarwadzo emwoyo azvino uno, kubuda panze, nharembozha yavo… Ndakatsanangurira shamwari yangu yepamoyo kuti ndakanga ndaora mwoyo. Akandiudza kuti aivawo nedambudziko rake. Asi chokwadi ndaizoda kutsigirwa. Ndainge ndotya kufa panhumbu iyi. Zvakaoma kuita zvisarudzo uri woga, nokuda kwezvisarudzo zvose zvine chokuita nemwana: zita rokutanga, rudzi rwekutarisira, kutenga, nezvimwewo. Ndakataura nemwana wangu zvakanyanya munguva ino. Louana akandipa simba rinoshamisa, ndakamurwira! Ndakasununguka kwasara mwedzi kuti titemuke, ndakabuda munhamo naamai tichienda kumaternity ward. Sezvineiwo, akawana nguva yekuyambira baba. Akakwanisa kuenda pakuzvarwa kwemwanasikana wake. Ndaida ku. Kwaari, Louana haisi yekungofungira. Akaziva mwanasikana wake, ane mazita edu maviri uye takasarudza zita rake rekutanga maminetsi mashoma asati azvarwa. Pandinofunga nezvazvo painge patove nekamhepo. Zvose zvakanga zvavhiringika mumusoro mangu! Ndakavhunduka nekuzvara mwana nguva isati yakwana, ndichinetseka nekuvapo kwababa, ndakatarisa pazita rekutanga… Pakupedzisira, zvakafamba zvakanaka, indangariro yakanaka. Chiri kunetsa kubata nhasi kusavapo kwababa. Anouya kashoma. Ndinogara ndichitaura nezvake zvakanaka pamberi pemwanasikana wangu. Asi kunzwa Louana achiti “baba” pasina anomupindura kuchiri kurwadza. “
“Zvinhu zvese zvakachinja pandakanzwa achifamba”
Samantha: “Ndisati ndabata pamuviri, ndaigara kuSpain kwandaive DJ. Ndakanga ndiri zizi reusiku. Nababa vemwanasikana wangu, ndaiva neukama hwakanaka kwazvo. Ndakagara naye kwegore nechidimbu, tichibva taparadzana kwegore. Ndakamuona zvakare, takafunga kuzvipa mukana wechipiri. Ndakanga ndisina kudzivirira pamuviri. Ndakanwa morning after pill. Tinofanira kutenda kuti hazvishande nguva dzese. Pandakaona kunonoka kwemazuva gumi, handina kunetseka zvakanyanya. Ndichiri kuita bvunzo. Uye ipapo, kuvhunduka. Akaonekwa ari positive. Shamwari yangu yaida kuti ndibvise pamuviri. I got the classic ultimatum shot, aiva mwana kana iye. Ndakaramba, ndaisada kubvisa pamuviri, ndakanga ndakura zvokukwanisa kuita mwana. Akabva aenda handina kuzomuona futi kuenda uku kwainge kwandirwadza chaiko. Ndakanga ndarasika zvachose. Ndaifanira kusiya zvose muSpain, upenyu hwangu, shamwari dzangu, basa rangu, uye kudzokera kuFrance, kuvabereki vangu. Pakutanga ndakaora mwoyo zvikuru. Zvino, mumwedzi wechi4, zvinhu zvose zvakachinja nokuti ndakanzwa mwana achifamba. Kubva pakutanga, ndakataura nedumbu rangu asi ndichinetseka kuti ndinzwisise. Ndakapfuura nemunguva dzakaoma chaizvo. Kuenda kuma ultrasound uye kungoona vakaroorana muimba yekumirira hakusi kunyaradza. Kechipiri, ndakademba kuti dai baba vangu vauya neni, nekuti ivo vaive kure kure nenhumbu iyi. Kuona mwana pascreen kwakamubatsira kuziva. Amai vangu vanofara! Kuti ndisanyanya kusurukirwa, ndakasarudza godfather uye godmother kubva pakati peshamwari dzangu dzechiSpanishi kare kare. Ndakavatumira mifananidzo yedumbu rangu nepainternet kuti vandione ndichichinja mumaziso evanhu vari pedyo neni, kunze kwevabereki vangu. Zvakaoma kusagovana shanduko idzi nemurume. Parizvino, chiri kundinetsa kusaziva kana baba vacho vachada kuziva mwanasikana wangu. Handizivi kuti ndaizozvitambira sei. Nokuda kwekutakura, shamwari dzangu dzeSpanish dzakauya. Vakabayiwa mwoyo zvikuru. Mumwe wavo akasara akarara neni. Kayliah, mwanasikana wangu, mucheche akanaka kwazvo: 3,920 kg ye 52,5 cm. Ndine pikicha yababa vake vadiki. Ane mhuno nemuromo. Chokwadi, anofanana naye. “
"Ndakanga ndakakomberedzwa uye ... ndakanga ndakakwirira"
Muriel : “Tanga tava nemakore maviri tichionana. Taisagara tese, asi kwandiri takanga tichiri vaviri. Ndakanga ndisingachashandisi kudzivirira kubata pamuviri, ndakanga ndava kufunga nezvokugona kuiswa kweIUD. Mushure mekunonoka kwemazuva mashanu, ndakatora bvunzo yakakurumbira. Positive. Zvakanaka, zvakandiita kuti ndifare. Zuva rakanakisa rehupenyu hwangu. Zvakanga zvisingatarisirwi zvachose, asi pakanga pane chido chechokwadi chevana pabhesi. Handina kumbofunga zvekubvisa nhumbu zvachose. Ndakafonera baba kuti ndivaudze nyaya. Akaomerera kuti: “Handidi. Handina kunzwa kubva kwandiri kwemakore mashanu mushure mekufona ikoko. Panguva iyoyo, maitiro ake haana kundinetsa zvakanyanya. Yakanga isiri nyaya hombe. Ndaifunga kuti aida nguva, kuti achinje pfungwa dzake. Ndakaedza kugara zen. Ndaitsigirwa zvikuru nevamwe vandaishanda navo, avo vaidzivirira zvikuru vokuItaly. Vakanditi "amai" mushure memavhiki matatu emimba. Ndakanga ndakasuruvara kuenda kuEchoes ndega kana neshamwari, asi kune rumwe rutivi, ndaive pa cloud nine. Chakanyanya kundirwadza ndechekuti ndainge ndakanganisa pamurume wandakanga ndasarudza. I was very surrounded, I was high at 10. I had an apartment, a job, I was not in an extreme situation. Gynecologist yangu yakanga yakanaka. Pakushanya kwokutanga, ndakabayiwa mwoyo zvokuti ndakachema. Aifunga kuti ndaichema nekuti ndaisada kumuchengeta. Pazuva rekusununguka ndakanga ndakagadzikana. Amai vangu vaivepo panguva yese yekushanda asi kwete zvekudzingwa. Ndaida kuva ndega ndichitambira mwana wangu. Kubva pakazvarwa Leonardo, ndakasangana nevanhu vakawanda. Kuberekwa uku kwakandiyananisa nehupenyu uye nevamwe vanhu. Makore mana gare gare, ndichiri pamusoro pegore rangu. ”
“Hapana anoona muviri wangu uchichinja. “
Mathilde: “Haisi tsaona, chiitiko chikuru. Baba vacho ndainge ndava nemwedzi minomwe. Ndakanga ndichiteerera, uye ndakanga ndisingazvitarisiri zvachose. Chokwadi ndakarohwa nehana pandakaona kablue pahwindo rebvunzo, asi ndakabva ndafara. Ndakamirira mazuva gumi kuti ndiudze baba vacho zvinhu zvakanga zvisina kumira zvakanaka. Akazvibata zvakaipa uye akati kwandiri: “Hapana mubvunzo wokubvunza. Zvisinei, ndakasarudza kuchengeta mwana. Akandipa nguva yemwedzi mumwe, uye paakanzwisisa kuti ndaisazochinja pfungwa dzangu, kuti ndakanga ndakatsunga, akave akashata chaizvo: "Uchazvidemba, pachanyorwa" baba vasingazivikanwi "Pazita rake rokuzvarwa. . “ Ndine chokwadi chekuti achachinja pfungwa rimwe zuva, munhu anonzwira tsitsi. Mhuri yangu yakagamuchira nhau idzi zvakanaka, asi shamwari dzangu dzakaderera zvikuru. Vakatiza, kunyange vasikana. Kutarisana naamai vasina murume kunoita kuti vaore mwoyo. Pakutanga zvakanga zvakaoma chaizvo, zvachose surreal. Ndaisaziva kuti ndaive ndakatakura hupenyu. Sezvo ndichinzwa achifamba, ndinofunga nezvake kupfuura kusiiwa kwababa. Mamwe mazuva ndinoora mwoyo zvikuru. Ndinombochema. Ndakaverenga kuti kuravira kweamniotic fluid inoshanduka zvichienderana nemafungiro aamai. Asi hey, ndinofunga zviri nani kuti nditaure manzwiro angu. Parizvino baba vacho havazivi kuti kakomana. Atova nevanasikana vaviri kurutivi rwake. Zvinondiitira zvakanaka kuti ari murima, ndiko kutsiva kwangu kudiki. Kushaikwa kwehunyoro, kumbundira, kutariswa kubva kumurume, zvakaoma. Hapana munhu aripo kuti atarise muviri wako uchichinja. Hatigoni kugovera zviri pedyo. Muedzo kwandiri. Nguva inoita seirefu kwandiri. Iyo inofungidzirwa kuva nguva yakanaka pakupedzisira ishungu. Handigoni kumirira kuti ipere. Ndichakanganwa zvese kana mwana wangu aripano. Chido changu chemwana chaive chakasimba kupfuura chero chinhu, asi kunyangwe chiri nemaune, chakaoma. Handisi kuzoita bonde kwemwedzi mipfumbamwe. Next Ini ndichayamwisa, ndichaisa hupenyu hwangu hwerudo kwenguva yakati. Semwana anozvibvunza mibvunzo pazera re2-3, ndinozviudza kuti ndine nguva yekuwana munhu akanaka. Ini pachangu ndakarerwa nastepfather vakandipa zvakawanda. ”
“Ndakazvara amai vangu varipo. “
Corinne: “Handina kuwirirana zvakanyanya nababa. Takanga tave nemavhiki maviri tichirambana pandakafunga kuti ndinonyora bvunzo. Ndakanga ndiine shamwari yangu, uye pandakaona kuti zvakanaka, ndakaputika nemufaro. JNdakaona kuti ndainge ndagara ndichirota. Mwana uyu aive pachena, chokwadi chekuchengetawo. Ndakatozovhundutswa nekubvunzwa kuti ndirikuronga kubvisa nhumbu here apa ndainge ndave nestress yekufirwa nemwana uyu. Ndakabva ndadimbura hukama nababa vacho avo vakati vaita zvakanaka vakabva vandipomera mhosva yekuvanyengedza. I am very surrounded nevabereki vangu even if, I can see it well, baba vangu vakanetsa kujaira. Ndakafamba kuti ndive pedyo navo. Ndakasaina pamaforamu einternet kuti ndinzwe ndiri ndega. Ndakatangazve kurapa. Sezvo ndakanga ndiri hyperemotional panguva iyi, zvinhu zvakawanda zvaibuda. Nhumbu yangu yakafamba zvakanaka chose. Ndakaenda kumaultrasound ndega kana naamai vangu. Ndine fungidziro yekuti ndakararama nhumbu yangu nemaziso ake. Kusununguka, akanga aripo. Mazuva matatu akanga apfuura, akauya kuzorara neni. Ndiye ainge akabata kamwana kaye paakasvika. Kwaari, chokwadi, chakanga chiri chiitiko chisingadaviriki. Kukwanisa kugamuchira muzukuru wako pakuzvarwa chinhu! Baba vangu vaidadawo chaizvo. Kugara muwadhi yevakazvarirwa kwakaratidzika kuva kushoma kujeka kwandiri sezvo ndaigara ndichinangana nemufananidzo wevaroorani mumufaro wakazara weroorano nemhuri. Izvo zvakandiyeuchidza nezvezvidzidzo zvekugadzirira kuzvara. Nyamukuta akanga akagarirwa madzibaba, aitaura nezvavo nguva dzose. Nguva imwe neimwe zvaiita kuti ndinzwe manyukunyuku. Vanhu pavanondibvunza kuti baba vari kupi, ndinopindura kuti hakuna, kuti kune mubereki. Ndinoramba kunzwa ndine mhosva pamusoro pokusavapo uku. Zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti pane nguva dzose nzira yekuwana nhamba dzevarume kubatsira mwana. Parizvino, zvese zvinoita sezviri nyore kwandiri. Ndinoedza kuva wepedyo kumwana wangu. Ndinoyamwisa, ndinopfeka zvakanyanya. Ndinotarisira kumuita murume anofara, akadzikama, ane chivimbo. ”