Hurwere hwangu hwakatora nguva yakareba kuti ndionekwe. Nguva diki ndisati ndasvitsa makore 30, kumwe kupera kwevhiki, ndichikurukura neshamwari, ndakanzwa hafu yechiso changu ichiti rukutu. Mushure mekufona kune ve emergency masevhisi vaitya sitiroko, ndakaita bhatiri rebvunzo izvo zvisina kupa chero chinhu. Hemiplegia yakanyangarika sezvayakanga yaita. Gore rakatevera racho, ndaityaira ndichienda kumba kwevabereki vangu, uye kamwe kamwe ndakatanga kuona kaviri. Ndainge ndave kutosvika saka ndakakwanisa kupaka. Kudzokera kukamuri yekukurumidzira. Takaita miedzo yakawanda: scanner, MRI, kuedza kutsvaga zvandaitambura nazvo, izvo zvisina kupa chero chinhu.
Muna 2014 ndiri kubasa ndaiverenga nhamba dzenhamba ndisingaone neziso rekurudyi. Ndakakurumidza kuenda kuna chiremba wemaziso. Akatanga kuona kusaona kwangu kurutivi rworudyi ndokuti: “Ndakadzidza nezvetsinga uye kwandiri chiratidzo chemultiple sclerosis.” Ndakadonhedza misodzi. Mufananidzo wakadzoka kwandiri waiva chigaro cheruoko, chokwadi chekutadza kufamba. Ndakachema kwemaminitsi mashanu, asi ndakazonzwa kurerukirwa. Ndakanzwa kuti hongu, pakupedzisira ndakanga ndawana chirwere chaicho. Chiremba wechipatara chetsinga akatsinhira kuti ndaiva nechirwere ichi. Ndakamushamisa nokupindura kuti: “Zvakanaka, chii chinotevera?” “Tit for tat. Kwandiri, zvaive zvakakosha kuti ndisaite mope, asi kuti ndiende zvakananga kune zvandaigona kuisa panzvimbo. Akandipa marapirwo andakazomira mushure memwedzi mina ndichibvumirana naye: Ndainzwa zvakanyanya kupfuura pasina, nekuda kwemhedzisiro.
Ndichangopedza chiziviso ichi, ndakadanana nababa vemwana wangu. Mumusoro mangu hapana pandakambofunga kuti kurwara kwangu kwaifanira kukanganisa chido changu chomwana. Kwandiri, hapana anoziva zvichange zvakaita ramangwana: amai vane hutano vanogona kutsikwa mumugwagwa, vari muwiricheya kana kufa. Neni shungu dzekuda mwana dzaive dzakasimba kupfuura zvese. Pandakangobata pamuviri, zvichitevera kumisa basa kwandaiita kakawanda, ndakamanikidzwa kuenda kubasa. Ndakadzingwa basa ndichibva ndanorwisa vashandirwi vangu kuLabour Court. Panguva yekuzvitakura, zviratidzo zveMS zvinowanzove zvishoma. Ndainzwa kuneta zvakanyanya uye kazhinji ndine masvosve muzvigunwe zvangu. Kusununguka hakuna kufamba zvakanaka: Ndakanyengetedzwa uye epidural haina kushanda. Ndakatambura kwenguva refu kusati kwasarudzwa cesarean yechimbichimbi. Ndakabatwa nehope zvekuti handina kuzomuona mwana wangu kusvika kwaedza.
Kubva pakutanga, yaive nyaya yerudo inoshamisa. Pashure pemazuva mashanu, ndadzoka kumba, ndaifanira kuvhiyiwa. Ndaive nebundu hombe pavanga rangu. Hapana akada kunditeerera pandakati ndairwadziwa zvisingaite. Ndakaita vhiki ndichivhiyiwa, ndakaparadzaniswa nekacheche kangu kaisazorariswa neni muchipatara. Ndiyo imwe yendangariro dzangu dzakaipisisa: pakati pekusununguka, ndakanga ndichichema, pasina tsigiro yetsika kubva kuna vanamukoti. Mai vangu ndivo vaichengeta mwana wangu nekuti baba vacho vairamba, vaisazvigona. Paakanga ava nemwedzi mina, takarambana. Ndiri kumurera ndega ndichibatsirwa naamai nekuti baba vacho havasati vavaona.
Chirwere ichi chakandiita kuti ndive kure nevanhu vakawanda, kunyanya shamwari dzangu dzekare. Zvakaomera vamwe kuti vanzwisise izvi dzimwe nguva chirwere chisingaoneki: Ndinonzwa kuneta, mabvi angu nezviziso zvemakumbo zvakatsikitsira, ndine migraine yakanyanya kana kurasikirwa kwekuona. Asi ndinoziva kuzviteerera. Kana mwana wangu achida kutamba nhabvu ini ndisina hushingi, ndinokurudzira kutamba makadhi. Asi kazhinji kazhinji, ndinoedza kuita chinhu chiri chose sevamwe vanaamai. Ini zvakare ndakabatana nesangano revarwere (SEP Avenir association), zvinonzwa zvakanaka kunzwa kunzwisiswa! Chidimbu chezano randaizopa kuvakadzi vane chido chevana uye vane multiple sclerosis: enda nazvo! Mwana wangu ndiye mushonga wangu wepahurwere hwangu.