“Kudhirika uku kwakaitika mushure mekuzvarwa kwemwana wangu wechipiri. Ndakanga ndarasikirwa nemwana wekutanga muchibereko saka nhumbu itsva iyi, zviri pachena, ndaitya nazvo. Asi kubva pamuviri pekutanga, ndaizvibvunza mibvunzo yakawanda. Ndakanetseka, ndainzwa kuti kuuya kwemwana kwaizonetsa. Uye pakaberekwa mwanasikana wangu, zvishoma nezvishoma ndakaora mwoyo. Ndakanzwa ndisingabatsiri, ndisina maturo. Pasinei nekuoma uku, ndakakwanisa kushamwaridzana nemwana wangu, akayamwiswa, akawana rudo rukuru. Asi chisungo ichi chakanga chisina kugadzikana. Ndakashaya kuti ndoita sei pakuchema. Panguva idzodzo ndakanga ndisingachabatiki zvachose. Ndaingotorwa moyo nyore nyore ndozonzwa ndine mhosva. Mavhiki mashoma ndasununguka, mumwe munhu aibva kuPMI akandishanyira kuti aone kuti zvaifamba sei. Ndakange ndave pasi pegomba asi hapana chaakaona. Ndakaviga kupererwa uku nenyadzi. Ndiani angadai akafungidzira? Ndakanga ndine “chinhu chiri chose” chokufara, murume akabatanidzwa, migariro yakanaka yokugara. Mhedzisiro yacho, ndakazvipeta mukati. Ndaifunga kuti ndiri chikara. JNdakaisa pfungwa dzangu pazvinhu zvechisimba izvi. Ndakafunga kuti vaizouya kuzotora mwana wangu.
Ndakasarudza kuita riini?
Pandakatanga kuita masigns ndichiitira mwana wangu, apa ndaitya kumushungurudza. Ndakatsvaga painternet kuti ndiwane rubatsiro ndokusangana neBlues Mom saiti. Ndinoyeuka zvakanaka, ndakanyoresa paforamu uye ndakavhura nyaya "hysteria uye kuparara kwekutya". Ndakatanga kukurukura naamai vainzwisisa zvandaisangana nazvo. Pazano ravo, ndakaenda kunoona chiremba wepfungwa munzvimbo yezvoutano. Vhiki yoga yoga, ndaiona munhu uyu kwehafu yeawa. Panguva iyoyo, kutambura kwaiva zvokuti ndakafunga kuzviuraya, kuti Ndaida kuraswa muchipatara nemwana wangu kuti nditungamirirwe. Zvishoma nezvishoma, ndakakwira pamateru. Ndaisafanira kunwa mushonga, kutaura ndiko kwakandibatsira. Uye zvakare chokwadi chekuti mwana wangu ari kukura uye zvishoma nezvishoma anotanga kuzviratidza.
Ndichiri kutaura neiyi shrink, zvinhu zvakawanda zvakavigwa zvakauya pamusoro. Ndakaona kuti amai vangu vaivewo nedambudziko ramai vangu mushure mekunge ndazvarwa. Zvakanga zvaitika kwandiri zvakanga zvisiri zvenhando. Ndichitarira shure kunhoroondo yemhuri yangu, ndakanzwisisa chikonzero nei ndakanga ndazununguka. Zviripachena pakazvarwa mwana wangu wechitatu ndaitya kuti madhimoni angu ekare aizobudazve. Uye vakadzoka. Asi ndaiziva nzira yekuvadzivisa nayo nekutangazve kutevera kurapwa. Kufanana navamwe vanamai vakava nokuora mwoyo kwapashure pokusununguka, chimwe chezvinondinetsa nhasi ndechokuti vana vangu vacharangarira ichi chinetso chaamai. Asi ndinofunga kuti zvinhu zvose zvakanaka. Kasikana kangu kari kufara chaizvo uye mukomana wangu ari kuseka chaizvo. “