Natasha St-Pier: "Ndakanga ndine chinangwa, kuchengetedza hupenyu hwemwana wangu anorwara. “

Kakomana kako kari sei?

"Bixente zvino ave negore nehafu, anoonekwa kunze kwengozi, kureva kuti kuvhiyiwa kwaakaitwa nemwedzi mina yekuvhara septum (membrane inoparadzanisa makamuri maviri emwoyo) yabudirira. Kufanana nevanhu vose vakambova nehosha yemwoyo, anofanira kuongororwa kamwe chete pagore munzvimbo ine hunyanzvi. Mwanakomana wangu akaberekwa aine tetralogy yeFallot. Kuremara kwemoyo kunobata mwana mumwe chete pazana. Sezvineiwo, chirwere chakawanikwa muchibereko, akakwanisa kuvhiyiwa nekukurumidza uye ave achipora zvakanyanya kubva ipapo. “

Mubhuku, unozvipa nenzira yakatendeseka: iwe unoudza pamusoro pekusava nechokwadi kwako pamusoro peamai, matambudziko ako panguva yekuzvitakura, chii chakakonzera kuziviswa kwechirwere. Sei wakasarudza kusaita kutapira chero chinhu?

“Bhuku iri, handina kurinyora ini. Panguva iyoyo, ndakataura zvakawanda nezveBixente pasocial media panguva inenge yese yehurwere hwake. Ndakanga ndisisanzwe kuda kutaura nezvazvo. Ndakanyora bhuku iri kune vamwe vanaamai vangangove vachibatwa nechirwere ichi. Kuti vazvizive. Kwandiri yaive nzira yekutenda hupenyu. Kukwazisa rombo rakanaka ratakava naro. Paunenge wava amai kekutanga, unogona kutaura neshamwari dzako, mhuri yako. Asi kana iwe ukava amai vemwana ane chirwere chisingawanzoitiki, haugoni kutaura nezvazvo, nokuti hapana munhu akakupoteredza anogona kunzwisisa. Nebhuku iri, tinogona kuzviisa mutsoka dzaamai ava, uye kunzwisisa zvavari kusangana nazvo. “

Pawakaziva nezvehurwere hwake, chiremba aiongorora Ultrasound aive nemutsara unoshamisa. Unogona here kutiudza nezvenguva ino?

“Zvaityisa, zvakandibaya segomba. Pa 5 months yenhumbu, sonographer akatiudza kuti aisaona moyo zvakanaka. Akanga atitumira kune mumwe waaishanda naye chiremba wemwoyo. Ndakanga ndambomira nguva iyi, nekuti yakadonha panguva yezororo. Saka, ndakazviita kunonoka, ndine pamuviri pemwedzi inenge 7. Pandakanga ndichipfeka, chiremba akashevedzera kuti, “Tichaponesa mwana uyu!” “. Haana kuti, “Mwana wako ane chinetso,” ipapo ipapo pakanga pane chinyorwa chetariro. Akatipa zvinhu zvekutanga pachirwere… asi panguva iyoyo ndakanga ndiri mukati memhute, ndakakatyamadzwa nenhau dzinotyisa idzi. “

Panguva imwecheteyo, iwe unotaura kuti panguva ino, panguva yekuziviswa kwechirwere chake, iwe "wakanzwa seamai".

“Hongu, ichokwadi, handina kunyatsogutsikana kuti ndine pamuviri! Nhumbu yacho yainge yatonyanya. Kusvikira panguva iyoyo, ndakanga ndichifunga nezvangu. Kubasa rangu, zvekuti ndakabata pamuviri ndisina kumboitsvaga, pakupera kwekusununguka kwangu. Yakatsvairwa yese. Zvinoshamisa, asi nechiziviso chehurwere hwake, zvakagadzira chisungo pakati pedu. Panguva imwe cheteyo, ndakanga ndichinzwa ndisina kugadzirira kuva nomwana akaremara. Handisi kuti unofanira kubvisa mimba nguva dzose, kure nazvo. Asi ndakazviudza kuti handingavi nechivi chokurera mwana akaremara. Takamirira maresults eamniocentesis, uye ndakanga ndagadzirira zvachose kusachengeta mwana. Ndaida kutanga kuchema kuti ndisadonha panguva yechiziviso. Ndiwo hunhu hwangu: Ndinotarisira zvakawanda uye ndinogara ndichigadzirira zvakaipisisa. Murume wangu anopesana: anotarisa pane zvakanakisa. Pamberi pe amniocentesis, inguva zvakare yatakasarudza zita rake, Bixente, ndiye "uyo anokunda": taida kumupa simba! “

Pawakaona kuti mwana wako haasi kuremara, waiti “Aya ndiwo mashoko akanaka ekutanga kubva pandakanzwa kuti ndine pamuviri”.

“Ehe, ndafunga kuti ndinofanira kumurwira. Ndaifanira kuchinja kuti ndiite warrior mode. Pane chirevo chinoti: “Patinozvara mwana, tinozvara vanhu vaviri: mwana… naamai”. Isu tinozviona pakarepo kana tave amai vemwana anorwara: isu tine basa rimwe chete, rekuriponesa. Kusununguka kwaiva kwenguva refu, epidural yakanga yangotora divi rimwe chete. Asi anesthesia, kunyange chidimbu, yakandibvumira kurega: muawa imwe chete, ndakaenda kubva pa2 kusvika ku10 cm yekuwedzera. Achangobva kusununguka, ndakarwa kuti ndiyamwise. Ndaida kumupa zvakanakisisa. Ndakapfuurira zvakanaka pashure pokuvhiyiwa, kusvikira ava nemwedzi gumi yokukura. “

Waburitswa muchipatara, wakamirira kuvhiyiwa, wakatsinhirwa kuti usarega mwana wako achichema, wakasangana sei nenguva iyi?

” Zvaityisa ! Zvakatsanangurirwa kwandiri kuti kana Bixente akachema zvakanyanya, sezvo ropa rake rakanga rakashata muokisijeni, aigona kuva nemoyo wekushaya simba, kuti yakanga iri njodzi inotyisidzira upenyu. Pakarepo, ndakanetseka zvikuru uye ndakanetseka paakangochema. Uye chakanyanya kuipa ndechekuti aive necolic! Ndinoyeuka ndichipedza maawa ndiri pabhora rekusununguka, ndichisvetuka-svetuka nekurizunungusa kumusoro nekudzika. Ndiyo yega nzira yekumudzikamisa. Ndakatozotura mafemo chete baba vake pavakamugezesa. “

Chikamu chemapurofiti kubva mukutengeswa kwebhuku chichapihwa kusangano rePetit Cœur de Beurre, ndezvipi zvinangwa zvesangano?

"Petit Cœur de Beurre akagadzirwa nevabereki. Anounganidza mari kune rumwe rutivi kubatsira kutsvagisa nezvechirwere chemoyo, uye kune rumwe kubatsira nemhando dzese dzezvinhu zvisiri zvekurapa chete: tinopa mari makirasi e yoga kuvabereki, takabatsira kugadziridza imba yekutandarira yevanamukoti, 3D printer kuitira kuti vanachiremba vakwanise kudhinda mwoyo inorwara vasati vavhiyiwa ... "

Ko Bixente mucheche akarara zvakanaka here?

“Aiwa, sevacheche vakawanda vari muchipatara, ane funganyo yokusiiwa uye achiri kumuka kakawanda usiku hwose. Sezvandinotaura mubhuku: pandinonzwa vanaamai vachiti mwana wavo anorara maawa gumi nemana usiku, zviri nyore, ndinoda kuvarova! Pamba, ndakagadzirisa chikamu chechinetso nekumutengera mubhedha we 14 cm, pa 140 euro paIkea, yandakaisa muimba yake. Ndakangochekeresa makumbo kuti asanyanya kukwira ndokuisa ma bolster kuti asadonha. Husiku, tinobatana naye, murume wangu kana ini, kuti timunyaradze paanodzokera kunorara. Zvakaponesa pfungwa dzangu! “

 

Wakarekodha rwiyo *, "L'Alphabet des Animaux". Sei nziyo dzevana?

“NaBixente, kubvira paakazvarwa, takateerera mimhanzi yakawanda. Anoda zvitayera zvese zvekuimba kwete zvevana. Zvakandipa pfungwa yekugadzira album yevana, asi kwete yevacheche ine xylophone dzinotyisa uye manzwi emhino. Kune mimhanzi chaiyo, zviridzwa zvakanaka… Ndakafungawo nezvevabereki vanoiteerera ka26 pazuva! Zvinofanira kufadza munhu wese! “

Mwoyo wangu mudiki webhotoro ”, Natasha St-Pier, ed. Michel Lafon. Yakaburitswa May 24, 2017

** kuburitswa kwakarongwa muna Gumiguru 2017

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