Kune akasiyana makuhwa pamusoro peVipassana kufungisisa. Vamwe vanoti tsika iyi yakaoma zvikuru nekuda kwemitemo inokumbirwa kuti vanofungisisa vatevedzere. Chechipiri chinoti Vipassana akashandura hupenyu hwavo pasi, uye chechitatu vanoti vakaona chekupedzisira, uye havana kuchinja zvachose mushure mechikoro.
Kufungisisa kunodzidziswa muzvidzidzo zvemazuva gumi pasi rose. Mumazuva ano, vanofungisisa vanocherechedza kunyarara kwakakwana (musataurirana nemumwe kana nekunze kwenyika), regai kuuraya, kunyepa uye kuita zvepabonde, kudya zvokudya zvemiti chete, kusaita dzimwe nzira, uye kufungisisa kwemaawa anopfuura gumi. zuva.
Ndakatora kosi yeVipassana paDharmashringa centre padyo neKathmandu uye mushure mekufungisisa kubva mundangariro ndakanyora zvinyorwa izvi.
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Manheru ega ega mushure mekufungisisa tinouya kukamuri, umo mune maplasma maviri - imwe yevarume, imwe yevakadzi. Tinogara pasi uye VaGoenka, mudzidzisi wekufungisisa, vanoonekwa pahwindo. Ane hubby, anofarira chena, uye anotenderera nyaya dzemudumbu nzira yese. Akasiya mutumbi munaGunyana 2013. Asi pano ari pamberi pedu pachiratidziro, ari mupenyu. Pamberi pekamera, Goenka anozvibata akasununguka zvachose: anokwenya mhino yake, anofuridzira mhino yake zvinonzwika, anotarisa zvakananga kune vanofungisisa. Uye rinoita serinorarama zvechokwadi.
Kwandiri, ndakamuti "sekuru Goenka", uye gare gare - chete "sekuru".
Murume wekare akatanga hurukuro yake padharma manheru oga oga nemashoko okuti "Nhasi ndiro zuva rakaoma" ("Nhasi ndiro zuva rakaoma"). Ukuwo kutaura kwake kwairatidza kusuwa nekunzwisa tsitsi zvekuti mazuva maviri ekutanga ndakatenda mashoko aya. Pazuva rechitatu ndakaridza mhere sebhiza pandakanzwa. Hongu, ari kutiseka zvake!
Handina kuseka ndega. Kumashure kwaive neimwe kuchema kwemufaro. PavaRungu vangangosvika makumi maviri vakateerera kosi yechirungu, ini nemusikana uyu chete takaseka. Ndakatendeuka uye - sezvo zvakanga zvisingabviri kutarisa mumaziso - nokukurumidza kutora mufananidzo wacho wose. Akanga akaita seizvi: jekete yembada, mapinki leggings uye bvudzi rakatsvuka rakamonana. Humpy mhuno. Ndakafuratira. Mwoyo wangu wakambodziya, uye ipapo hurukuro yese taiseka pamwe chete. Kwaiva kurerukirwa kwakadaro.
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Mangwanani ano, pakati pekutanga kufungisisa kubva 4.30 kusvika 6.30 uye yechipiri kubva 8.00 kusvika 9.00, ndakagadzira nyaya.sei isu - vekuEurope, maJapan, maAmerican nemaRussia - tinouya kuAsia kuti tifungisise. Tinotambidza mafoni nezvese zvatakaendesa ikoko. Mazuva anoverengeka anopfuura. Tinodya mupunga munzvimbo yelotus, vashandi havatauri nesu, tinomuka na4.30 ... Zvakanaka, muchidimbu, semazuva ose. Kamwe chete, mumangwanani, chinyorwa chinooneka pedyo nehoro yokufungisisa: “Wakasungwa. Kusvikira wawana kujekerwa, hatikusiye uchibuda.”
Uye chii chaunofanira kuita mumamiriro ezvinhu akadaro? Zviponese here? Kubvuma mutongo weupenyu hwose?
Fungisisa kwekanguva, pamwe iwe zvechokwadi uchakwanisa kuwana chimwe chinhu mumamiriro ezvinhu anoshungurudza akadaro? Unknown. Asi boka rose nemhando dzose dzemaitiro evanhu fungidziro yangu yakandiratidza kweawa. Zvaive zvakanaka.
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Manheru takaendazve kunoona sekuru Goenka. Ndinonyatsoda nyaya dzake pamusoro paBuddha, nokuti dzinofema chokwadi uye nguva dzose - kusiyana nenyaya dzaJesu Kristu.
Pandakateerera sekuru vangu, ndakayeuka nyaya yaRazaro yemuBhaibheri. Hunhu hwayo ndehwekuti Jesu Kristu akauya kumba kwehama dzemushakabvu Razaro. Razaro akanga atoora, asi vakachema zvikuru zvokuti Kristu, kuti aite chishamiso, akamumutsa. Uye munhu wose akarumbidza Kristu, uye Razaro, sokurangarira kwangu, akava mudzidzi wake.
Heino yakafanana, kune rumwe rutivi, asi kune rumwe rutivi, yakasiyana zvachose nyaya kubva kuGoenka.
Paigara mukadzi. Mwana wake akafa. Akapenga neshungu. Akaenda paimba neimba, akabata mwana mumaoko ake ndokuudza vanhu kuti mwanakomana wake akanga akarara, akanga asina kufa. Aikumbira vanhu kuti vamubatsire kumuka. Uye vanhu, vachiona mamiriro emukadzi uyu, vakamuraira kuti aende kuGautama Buddha - pakarepo aigona kumubatsira.
Mukadzi wacho akauya kuna Buddha, akaona mugariro wake ndokuti kwaari: “Eya, ndinonzwisisa nhamo yako. Makandinyengetedza. Mwana wenyu ndichamumutsa kana mukaenda kumusha izvozvi mukawana imba imwe chete isina munhu akafa makore 100 apfuura.
Mukadzi akafara chose ndokuenda kunotsvaka imba yakadaro. Akapinda mumba mese ndokusangana nevanhu vakamuudza nezvenhamo yavo. Mune imwe imba, baba, muriritiri wemhuri yose, vakafa. Mune mumwe, amai, wechitatu, mumwe munhu muduku somwanakomana wavo. Mudzimai akatanga kuteerera uye kunzwira tsitsi vanhu vaimuudza nezvenhamo yavo, uye akakwanisawo kuvaudza nezvake.
Pashure pokupfuura nomudzimba dzose zana, akadzokera kuna Buddha ndokuti, “Ndinoziva kuti mwanakomana wangu afa. Ndine nhamo sevanhu vekumusha vaya. Tese tinorarama uye tose tinofa. Unoziva here zvokuita kuti rufu rusava rusuruvaro rukuru kwatiri tose? Bhudha akamudzidzisa kufungisisa, akavhenekerwa uye akatanga kudzidzisa kufungisisa kune vamwe.
Oh…
Nenzira, Goenka akataura nezvaJesu Kristu, Muporofita Mohammed, se "vanhu vazere nerudo, kuwirirana, nerunyararo." Akataura kuti chete munhu asina kana donhwe rehasha kana kutsamwa haagone kuvenga vanhu vanomuuraya (tiri kutaura nezvaKristu). Asi kuti zvitendero zvenyika zvakarasikirwa nepakutanga izvo vanhu ava vazere nerunyararo nerudo vakatakura. Rite dzakatsiva chinangwa chezviri kuitika, zvipiriso kune vamwari - shanda iwe pachako.
Uye nekuda kweizvi, Sekuru Goenka vakataura imwe nyaya.
Baba vemumwe mukomana vakafa. Baba vake vakanga vari munhu akanaka, akafanana nesu tose: akambotsamwa, kamwe akanga akanaka uye ane mutsa. Akanga ari munhuwo zvake. Uye mwanakomana wake aimuda. Akauya kuna Buddha ndokuti, “Wadiwa Buddha, ndinoda chaizvo kuti baba vangu vaende kudenga. Unogona here kuronga izvi?"
Bhudha akamuudza kuti ne100% chokwadi, haaigona kuvimbisa izvi, uye zvechokwadi hapana, kazhinji, aigona. Jaya rakasimbirira. Akataura kuti mamwe mabrahmins akamuvimbisa kuita tsika dzinoverengeka dzaizochenesa mweya wababa vake kubva muzvivi uye kuita kuti zvive nyore kwazvo kuti zvive nyore kwaari kupinda kudenga. Akagadzirira kubhadhara zvakanyanya kuna Buddha, nekuti mukurumbira wake wakanaka kwazvo.
Ipapo Bhudha akati kwaari, “Zvakanaka, enda kumusika undotenga hari ina. Uise mabwe mukati mawo maviri, ugodira mafuta mune mamwe maviri, ugouya. Jaya racho rakaenda richifara zvikuru, rakaudza munhu ari wose, kuti: “Buddha akapikira kuti aizobetsera mweya wababa vangu kuenda kudenga!” Akaita zvose ndokudzokera. Pedyo norwizi, apo Buddha akanga akamumirira, mhomho yavanhu vaifarira zvaiitika yakanga yatoungana.
Bhudha akati aise hari pazasi perwizi. Jaya rakazviita. Bhudha akati, "Zvino zviputse." Jaya rakanyura zvakare ndokupwanya hari. Mafuta akayangarara, uye matombo akaramba arimo kwemazuva.
“Ndizvo zvakaitawo mifungo nemirangariro zvababa vako,” akadaro Buddha. “Kana akazvishandira, mweya wake waibva wareruka sebhata uye wakakwira kusvika pachiyero chaidiwa, uye kana aiva munhu akaipa, matombo akadaro aibva atanga mukati make. Uye hapana anogona kushandura matombo kuva mafuta, hapana vamwari - kunze kwababa vako.
- Saka iwe, kuti ushandure matombo kuva mafuta, zvishande iwe, - sekuru vakapedza hurukuro yavo.
Takasimuka ndokunorara.
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Mangwanani ano mushure mekudya kwemangwanani, ndakaona chinyorwa pedyo nemusuwo weimba yekudyira. Yakanga iine makoramu matatu: zita, nhamba yekamuri, uye "zvaunoda." Ndakamira ndokutanga kuverenga. Zvakazoitika kuti vasikana vepedyo vanoda pechimbuzi, mushonga wemazino nesipo. Ndakafunga kuti zvakanaka kunyora zita rangu, nhamba uye “pfuti imwe nebara rimwe ndapota” ndokunyemwerera.
Ndichiverenga rondedzero, ndakaona zita remuvakidzani wangu akaseka pataiona vhidhiyo naGoenka. Zita rake ainzi Josephine. Ndakabva ndangomuti Leopard Josephine ndikanzwa kuti pakupedzisira akarega kuva kwandiri vamwe vakadzi vose makumi mashanu vaiva mukosi (vanenge 20 vokuEurope, vaviri vokuRussia, kusanganisira ini, vanenge 30 veNepalese). Kubva ipapo, kuna Leopard Josephine, ndakava neushamwari mumwoyo mangu.
Atova manheru, panguva yekuzorora pakati pekufungisisa, ndakamira ndikanzwa maruva makuru machena,
zvakafanana nefodya (sekudanwa kunoitwa maruva aya muRussia), ukuru chete kwega kwega mwenje wetafura, sezvo Josephine akamhanya achipfuura nepandiri nekukurumidza. Akafamba nekuchimbidza sezvo kwairambidzwa kumhanya. Akafamba denderedzwa rakazara - kubva kuimba yekufungisisa kuenda kuimba yekudyira, kubva kuimba yekudyira kuenda kuchivakwa, kubva muchivako ichikwira masitepisi kuenda kuimba yekufungisisa, uye zvakare, uye zvakare. Vamwe vakadzi vakanga vachifamba, boka rose rakamira pamusoro pemanera pamberi pemakomo eHimalaya. Mumwe mukadzi wekuNepal akanga achiita maekisesaizi achitambanudza chiso nechiso chakazara nehasha.
Josephine akandimhanyira katanhatu, ndokubva agara pabhenji akatsikitsira muviri wose. Akapfekera ma leggings ake epink mumaoko, akazvivhara nemop yebvudzi dzvuku.
Kupenya kwekupedzisira kwepingi kuvira kwezuva kwakapa nzira kusvika manheru ebhuruu, uye gongo rekufungisisa rakanzwika zvakare.
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Mushure memazuva matatu ekudzidza kutarisa kufema kwedu uye kusafunga, inguva yekuedza kunzwa zviri kuitika nemuviri wedu. Zvino, panguva yekufungisisa, tinoona manzwiro anomuka mumuviri, achipfuura kutarisa kubva kumusoro kusvika kutsoka uye kumashure. Panguva ino, zvinotevera zvakava pachena pamusoro pangu: Ini handina zvachose matambudziko nekunzwa, ndakatanga kunzwa zvese pazuva rekutanga. Asi kuitira kuti usapindira mune izvi zvekunzwa, kune matambudziko. Kana ndiri kupisa, saka, damn it, ndiri kupisa, ndinopisa zvakanyanya, kupisa zvakanyanya, kupisa zvakanyanya. Kana ndikanzwa kudengenyeka uye kupisa (uye ndinonzwisisa kuti manzwiro aya akabatanidzwa nekutsamwa, sezvo iri manzwiro ekutsamwa anomuka mukati mangu), saka ndinozvinzwa sei! Ini zvangu. Uye mushure meawa yekusvetuka kwakadaro, ndinonzwa kupera simba zvachose, kusagadzikana. Zen wanga uchitaura nezvei? Eee… Ndinonzwa segomo rinoputika rinoputika sekondi yega yega yekuvapo kwaro.
Manzwiro ose akave ane 100 nguva yakajeka uye yakasimba, manzwiro akawanda uye manzwiro emuviri kubva kare anobuda. Kutya, kuzvinzwira tsitsi, kutsamwa. Vanobva vapfuura uye zvitsva zvinobuda.
Inzwi raSekuru Goenka rinonzwika pamusoro pevakurukuri, richidzokorora chinhu chimwe chetecho kakawanda: “Ingocherechedza kufema kwako nokunzwa kwako. Manzwiro ese ari kuchinja” (“Ingotarisa kufema kwako uye manzwiro ako. Manzwiro ese anoshandurwa”).
Ah hongu…
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Tsananguro dzaGoenka dzakawedzera kuoma. Iye zvino dzimwe nguva ndinoenda kunoteerera mirairo muchiRussia pamwe chete nemusikana Tanya (takasangana naye pamberi pekosi) uye mumwe mukomana.
Makosi anoitirwa kudivi revarume, uye kuti upinde muhoro yedu, unofanira kuyambuka ndima yevarume. Zvakabva zvaoma. Varume vane simba rakasiyana zvachose. Vanokutarisa, uye kunyangwe vachifungisisa sezvauri, maziso avo achiri kufamba seizvi:
- mahudyu,
- chiso (chinyoro)
– chipfuva, chiuno.
Havaite nemaune, hunhu hwavo chete. Havandide, havandifungire, zvese zvinoitika zvoga. Asi kuti ndipfuure ndima yavo, ndinozvifukidza negumbeze, sechidzitiro. Zvinoshamisa kuti muhupenyu hwemazuva ose tinenge tisinganzwi maonero evamwe vanhu. Ikozvino kutarisa kwese kunonzwa sekubata. Ndaifunga kuti vakadzi vechiMuslim havararami zvakashata pasi pechifukidziro.
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Ndakawacha nevakadzi vekuNepal masikati ano. Kubva gumi nerimwe kusvika kune imwe tine nguva yekusununguka, izvo zvinoreva kuti iwe unogona kugeza zvipfeko zvako uye kugeza. Vakadzi vese vanogeza zvakasiyana. Vakadzi vekuEurope vanotora mabheseni voenda kuhuswa. Ikoko vanokwachura uye vanonyorovesa mbatya dzavo kwenguva refu. Kazhinji vane hupfu hwekugeza maoko. Vakadzi vechiJapan vanowacha mumagirovhosi akajeka (vanowanzo setsa, vanokwesha mazino avo kashanu pazuva, vanopeta mbatya dzavo mumurwi, vanogara vari vekutanga kugeza).
Eya, apo tose takagara pauswa, vakadzi veNepalese vanobata mateko ndokudyara mafashamo chaiwoiwo pedyo nawo. Vanokwiza salwar kameez yavo (chipfeko chenyika, chinoita senge tirauzi rakasununguka uye jasi refu) nesipo zvakananga patile. Kutanga nemaoko, ipapo netsoka. Vanobva vamonera hembe nemaoko akasimba mumasvinga ejira vorovera pasi. Splash inobhururuka ichitenderera. Random veEurope vanopararira. Vamwe vese vakadzi vekuNepalese vanogeza havaite chero nzira kune zviri kuitika.
Zvino nhasi ndafunga kuisa hupenyu hwangu panjodzi ndigeze navo. Chaizvoizvo, ndinoda maitiro avo. Ndakatangawo kuwacha hembe pasi chaipo, ndichizvitsika-tsika ndisina bhutsu. Vakadzi vese vekuNepal vakatanga kunditarisa nguva nenguva. Kutanga, mumwe wacho ndokundibata nembatya dzavo kana kundidira mvura zvokuti mhomho yemvura yakabhururuka pamusoro pangu. Yaiva tsaona here? Pandakapeta tourniquet ndokunyatsorova pasink, pamwe vakandigamuchira. Zvirinani hapana mumwe munhu akanditarisa, uye takaramba tichigeza pamwero wakafanana - pamwe chete uye zvakanaka.
Tasuka zvinhu zvishomanana, mukadzi mukuru pakosi akauya kwatiri. Ndakamutumidza kuti Momo. Kunyange zvazvo muNepalese mbuya vaizove neimwe nzira yakasiyana, ipapo ndakaona sei - iri ishoko rakaoma uye risina kunaka kwazvo. Asi zita rokuti Momo rakanga rakamukodzera zvikuru.
Ainge akapfava, mutete uye akaoma, ari mutsvuku. Aive neakarukwa refu grey, aiyevedza zvinoyevedza uye maoko akatsiga. Momo vakabva vatanga kugeza. Hazvizivikanwi kuti sei akasarudza kuita izvi kwete mukugeza, iyo yakanga iri pedyo naye, asi pano nepamadhishi pamberi pemunhu wese.
Ainge akapfeka sari ndokutanga kumubvisa top. Akasara musara ooma pasi, akanyika mucheka mudhishi ndokutanga kuuputira. Nemakumbo akatwasuka, akakotama pachiuno ndokukwesha hembe dzake. Chipfuva chake chakashama chaionekwa. Uye mazamu iwayo akanga akaita sezamu romusikana muduku, muduku uye akanaka. Ganda rekumusana raiita kunge rakatsemuka. Tight fit inobuda mapendekete. Aive ari munyoro, ari munyoro, akashinga. Apedza kugeza pamusoro pesari ndokupfeka akaregedzera vhudzi pasi ndokunyika mudhishi rimwe chete remvura ine sipo maive nesari. Sei achichengetedza mvura yakawanda kudaro? Kana sipo? Bvudzi rake rakanga riri resirivha raibva mumvura ine sipo, kana kuti zvimwe yakabva kuzuva. Pane imwe nguva, mumwe mukadzi akabva asvika paaiva akatora dhende, akarinyika mubheseni raiva nesari, akatanga kupuruzira musana waMomo. Vakadzi havana kutendeukira kune mumwe nemumwe. Vaisataudzana. Asi Momo havana kana kumboshamiswa kuti musana wavo waikweshwa. Mushure mekukwesha ganda mumakorokoza kwenguva yakati rebei, mukadzi uyu akaisa dhende pasi ndokuenda.
Vainge vakanaka zvavo Momo ava. Zuva rakajeka masikati, sipo, ine bvudzi refu resirivheri uye muviri wakaonda, wakasimba.
Ndakaringa ringa ndichikwiza chimwe chinhu mubheseni kuti ndionekwe, ndakapedzisira ndisisawane nguva yekugeza bhurugwa pakabva parira gongo rekufungisisa.
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Ndakamuka usiku ndichitya. Hana yangu yairova kunge mupengo, munzeve dzangu mainge muine maungira ainyatsonzwika, mudumbu mainge mopisa, ndakatota nedikita. Ndaitya kuti mumba maiva nemumwe munhu, ndakanzwa chimwe chinhu chisinganzwisisike ... kuvapo kwemumwe munhu ... ndaitya rufu. Nguva ino kana zvese zvapera kwandiri. Izvi zvichaitika sei kumuviri wangu? Ndichanzwa moyo wangu kumira here? Kana kuti pamwe pane mumwe asiri wepano padivi pangu, handisi kumuona, asi ari pano. Anogona kuoneka chero sekondi, uye ini ndichaona zvinyorwa zvake murima, maziso ake ari kupisa, kunzwa kubata kwake.
Ndaitya zvokuti ndakanga ndisingakwanisi kufamba, uye kune rumwe rutivi, ndaida kuita chimwe chinhu, chero chinhu, kuti zvipere. Mukai musikana akazvipira aigara nesu muchivako umu umuudze zvakaitika kwandiri, kana kubuda panze uye zunza kunyengera uku.
Pane zvimwe zvisaririra zvesimba, kana kuti zvimwe ndatova netsika yekucherechedza, ndakatanga kuona kufema kwangu. Handizivi kuti zvakatora nguva yakareba sei, ndakanzwa kutya kukuru pakufema kwese nekufemereka, zvakare uye zvakare. Kutya kunzwisisa kuti ndiri ndega uye hapana anogona kundidzivirira uye kundiponesa kubva panguva, kubva kurufu.
Ndakabva ndabatwa nehope. Husiku ndairota chiso chadhiyabhorosi, chakatsvuka uye semask yedhimoni yandakatenga muchitoro chevashanyi muKathmandu. Tsvuku, inopenya. Maziso chete aive ari serious achindivimbisa zvese zvandinoda. Ndakanga ndisingadi goridhe, zvepabonde kana mukurumbira, asi zvakadaro pane chimwe chinhu chaindichengeta zvakasimba mudenderedzwa reSamsara. Zvanga zviri…
Chinonyanya kufadza ndechekuti ndakanganwa. Handicharangariri kuti chaiva chii. Asi ndinoyeuka kuti muchiroto ndakashamiswa zvikuru: ndizvo chaizvoizvo, nei ndiri pano? Uye meso adhiabhorosi akandipindura: "Hongu."
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Nhasi izuva rekupedzisira rekunyarara, zuva regumi. Izvi zvinoreva kuti zvinhu zvose, kuguma kwemupunga usingagumi, kuguma kwekusimuka pa4-30 uye, zvechokwadi, pakupedzisira ndinogona kunzwa inzwi remudiwa. Ndinonzwa kuda kunzwa inzwi rake, kumumbundira uye kumuudza kuti ndinomuda nemoyo wangu wose, kuti ndinofunga kana ndikaisa pfungwa pane chido ichi zvishoma ikozvino, ndinogona teleport. Mune mafungiro aya, zuva regumi rinopfuura. Nguva nenguva zvinoshanduka kufungisisa, asi kwete kunyanya.
Manheru tinoonanazve nasekuru. Musi uyu akasuwa chaizvo. Anoti mangwana tichakwanisa kutaura, uye kuti mazuva gumi haasi nguva yakakwana yekuziva dharma. Asi anotarisirei kuti takadzidza kufungisisa zvishoma pano. Kuti kana, pakusvika kumba, isu takatsamwa kwete kwemaminitsi gumi, asi kanenge mashanu, zvino ichi chatova kubudirira kukuru.
Sekuru vanotipawo zano rekudzokorora kufungisisa kamwe chete pagore, pamwe nekufungisisa kaviri pazuva, uye vanotipa zano kuti tisave semumwe wevaanozivana naye kubva kuVaranasi. Uye anotiudza nyaya yeshamwari dzake.
Rimwe zuva, vanozivana nasekuru vaGoenka kubva kuVaranasi vakasarudza kuva nenguva yakanaka uye vakahaya mutyairi kuti avatasve pamwe chete neGanges usiku hwose. Usiku hwakati hwasvika, vakapinda mugwa vakati kumukwasvi - gweta. Akatanga kukwasva, asi pashure pemaminiti anenge gumi akati: “Ndinonzwa kuti mhepo iri kutitakura, ndingamisa here vakwasvi?” Shamwari dzaGoenka dzakabvumira mutyairi kuita kudaro, dzichimutenda zviri nyore. Mangwanani, zuva robuda, vakaona kuti vakanga vasati vasimuka kubva kumahombekombe. Vakatsamwa uye vakaora mwoyo.
“Saka iwe,” akapedzisa kudaro Goenka, “ndiwe mutyairi wevakwasvi uye ndiwe anohaya mutyairi.” Musazvinyengedze murwendo rwedharma. Basa!
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Nhasi ndiwo manheru ekupedzisira ekugara kwedu pano. Vese vanofungisisa vanoenda kupi. Ndakapfuura nepaimba yekufungisisa ndokutarisa zviso zvevakadzi vekuNepal. Zvinonakidza sei, ndakafunga, kuti imwe mhando yekutaura yaiita seyakaoma pane chimwe kana chimwe chiso.
Kunyange zvazvo zviso zvisingatauriki, vakadzi vari pachena "mavari", asi unogona kuedza kufungidzira unhu hwavo uye nzira yavanobatana nayo nevanhu vakavapoteredza. Uyu ane mhete nhatu pazvigunwe zvake, chirebvu chake chiri mudenga nguva dzose, uye miromo yake yakatsikirirwa. Zvinoita sokuti kana akashama muromo wake, chinhu chokutanga chaachaita ndeichi: “Munoziva, vavakidzani vedu mapenzi akadaro.
Kana uyu. Zvinoita sezvisina chinhu, zviri pachena kuti hazvina kuipa. Saka, kuzvimba uye mhando yehupenzi, inononoka. Asi wotarisa, unoona kuti anogara achizvitorera mipunga miviri pakudya kwemanheru, kana kuti anotanga amhanyidzana sei kuti apinde muzuva, kana kuti anotarisa sei mamwe madzimai, kunyanya vekuEurope. Uye zviri nyore kumufungidzira ari pamberi peTV yeNepalese achiti, “Mukund, vavakidzani vedu vanga vaine maTV maviri, uye vava neyechitatu TV. Dai taiva neimwe TV." Uye aneta uye, zvichida, aoma muupenyu hwakadaro, Mukund anomupindura, kuti: “Chokwadi, mudiwa, hungu, tichatenga imwe seti yeTV.” Uye iye, achirova miromo yake zvishoma semhuru, sekunge ari kutsenga uswa, anotarisa paTV uye zvinosekesa kwaari pavanenge vamuseka, achisuwa kana vachida kumunetsa ... Kana pano ...
Asi ipapo fungidziro dzangu dzakadzongonyedzwa naMomo. Ndakaona adarika ndokufamba akazvitemba akananga kufence. Chokwadi ndechekuti musasa wedu wese wekufungisisa wakakomberedzwa nemafenzi madiki. Vakadzi vakavharirwa nevarume, uye tose tinobva kunze uye dzimba dzevadzidzisi. Pamafenzi ose unogona kuona zvakanyorwa: “Ndapota musayambuka bhodha iri. Fara!" Uye heino imwe yeiyi fenzi inoparadzanisa vanofungisisa kubva kuVipassana tembere.
Iyi zvakare imba yekufungisisa, inongowedzera kunaka, yakashongedzwa negoridhe uye yakafanana nekoni yakatambanudzwa kumusoro. Zvino Momo vakaenda kufenzi iyi. Akafamba achienda kuchikwangwani chacho, akatarira-tarira, uye—chero bedzi pasina akanga achitarira—akabvisa mhete pamusuo wedanga ndokusveverera napairi nokukurumidza. Akamhanya nhanho shoma ndokurereka musoro wake zvinosetsa, ainyatsotarisa kutemberi. Ipapo, ndichicheuka zvakare ndokuona kuti hapana anomuona (ndakanyepedzera kutarisa pasi), Momo asina kusimba uye akaoma akamhanya achikwira mamwe nhanho makumi maviri ndokutanga kutarisa pachena patemberi iyi. Akakanda nhanho mbiri kuruboshwe, nhanho mbiri kurudyi. Akabatanidza maoko ake. Akatendeudza musoro wake.
Ndakazoona imwe nanny yave kufemereka yevakadzi vekuNepal. Vanhu vekuEurope nevakadzi veNepalese vaiva nevanozvipira vakasiyana, uye kunyange zvazvo zvingava zvakatendeseka kutaura kuti "kuzvipira", mukadzi wacho airatidzika seaini ane mutsa kubva kune imwe yezvipatara zveRussia. Akamhanyira kuna Momo chinyararire ndokuratidza nemaoko ake kuti: “Dzokera.” Momo vakacheuka asi vakaita sevasina kuvaona. Ndopakasvika nanny paari, Momo vakabva vatanga kupinza maoko avo pamwoyo wavo vachiratidza kuti vainge vasina kuona masaini uye vaisaziva kuti hazviite kupinda apa. Akadzungudza musoro achiratidza kuva nemhosva zvikuru.
Chii chiri kumeso kwake? Ndakaramba ndichifunga. Chimwe chinhu chakadaro ... Kashoma kuti angave achida mari zvakanyanya. Pamwe… Zvakanaka, hongu. Zviri nyore. Kuda kuziva. Momo aiva nebvudzi resirivheri aifarira zvikuru kuziva, zvaisaita! Kunyange ruzhowa rwakatadza kumumisa.
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Nhasi tataura. Vasikana vokuEurope vakakurukura manzwiro ataiita tose. Vakanyara kuti tese takabhowekana, takafenda uye takanyura. Gabrielle, mukadzi wechiFrench, akati hapana chaakanzwa uye aigara akarara. "Chii, wanzwa chimwe chinhu?" akazvibvunza.
Josephine akazova Joselina—ndisina kuverenga zita rake. Ushamwari hwedu husina kusimba hwakaparara pamhinganidzo yemutauro. Akaratidza kuva muIrish ane matauriro anorema zvikuru nokuda kwemaonero angu uye kukurumidza kukuru kwokutaura, saka takambundirana kakawanda, uye ndizvo zvazviri. Vazhinji vakati kufungisisa uku chikamu cherwendo rwakakura kwavari. Vaivewo mune mamwe maashram. MuAmerica, uyo akauya kechipiri akananga Vipassana, akati hongu, zvine zvazvinoita muhupenyu hwake. Akatanga kupenda mushure mekufungisisa kwekutanga.
Musikana wokuRussia Tanya akazova musununguri. Aimboshanda muhofisi, asi akazotanga kunyura asina scuba giya zvakadzama, uye akazara nemafashamo zvekuti iye zvino anodhivha 50 metres uye aive kuWorld Championship. Paakataura chimwe chinhu, akati: “Ndinokuda, ndichatenga chitima. Kutaura uku kwakandifadza, uye ndakatanga kumuda nenzira yechiRussia chete panguva iyoyo.
Vakadzi vechiJapan vaisataura chiRungu chinenge chisina, uye zvakanga zvakaoma kuchengeta nhaurirano navo.
Isu tose takabvumirana pachinhu chimwe chete - takanga tiri pano kuti tigadzirise manzwiro edu. Izvo zvakatitenderedza, zvakatikurudzira, zvakanyanyisa, zvisinganzwisisiki. Uye tose taida kufara. Uye tinoda ikozvino. Uye, zvinoratidzika, takatanga kuwana zvishoma ... Zvinoita kunge zvakadaro.
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Ndisati ndabuda ndakabva ndaenda kwataiwanzonwa mvura. Vakadzi vechiNepalese vakanga vakamira ipapo. Tichipedza kutaura vakabva vatosiyana nemadzimai aitaura chirungu uye kutaurirana kwaingoperera mukunyemwerera nekunyara “excuse me”.
Vaigara vari pamwe chete nguva dzose, vanhu vatatu kana kuti vana vari pedyo, uye zvakanga zvisiri nyore kutaura navo. Uye kutaura chokwadi, ndaida chaizvo kuvabvunza mibvunzo yakati wandei, kunyanya sezvo veNepalese muKathmandu vachibata vashanyi sevashanyi chete. Hurumende yeNepalese sezviri pachena inokurudzira mafungiro akadaro, kana zvimwe zvese zvakaipa nehupfumi… handizive.
Asi kutaurirana nevaNepalese, kunyange kungoerekana kwamuka, kunoderedzwa kusvika pakudyidzana kwekutenga nekutengesa. Uye izvi, hongu, ndezvekutanga, zvinofinha, uye kechipiri, zvakare zvinofinha. Muzvose, wakanga uri mukana mukuru. Saka ndakauya kuzonwa mvura, ndakatarisa-tarisa. Paiva nemadzimai matatu pedyo. Mumwe mukadzi wechidiki achiita maekisesaizi ekutambanudza nehasha pachiso chake, mumwe wezera repakati nepakati nekutaura kunofadza, uye wechitatu hapana. Handichatombomuyeuki iye zvino.
Ndakatendeukira kune mumwe mukadzi wezera repakati nepakati. “Pamusoroi, amai,” ndakadaro, “Handidi kukukanganisai, asi ndinofarira zvikuru kuziva chimwe chinhu pamusoro pevakadzi vokuNepal uye manzwire amakaita panguva yokufungisisa.
“Chokwadi,” akadaro.
Uye izvi ndizvo zvaakandiudza:
"Unoona vakadzi vakawanda vechikuru kana vakadzi vezera repakati muVipassana, uye izvi hazvina kuitika. Muno muKathmandu, VaGoenka vane mukurumbira, nharaunda yavo haionekwi sesekete. Dzimwe nguva mumwe munhu anodzoka kubva kuVipassana uye tinoona kuti munhu iyeye achinja sei. Anova munyoro kune vamwe uye akadzikama. Saka nzira iyi yakawana mukurumbira muNepal. Nenzira inoshamisa, pwere hadzifariri zvikuru nayo kupfuura vanhu vezera rapakati napakati navakuru. Mwanakomana wangu anoti izvi zvese hazvina maturo uye kuti unofanira kuenda kuna chiremba wepfungwa kana chimwe chinhu chisina kunaka. Mwanakomana wangu ari kuita bhizinesi muAmerica uye isu tiri mhuri yakapfuma. Iniwo ndave nemakore gumi ndichigara muAmerica uye ndinodzoka pano apo neapo kuzoona hama dzangu. Chizvarwa chechidiki muNepal chiri munzira isiriyo yebudiriro. Vanonyanya kufarira mari. Zvinoratidzika kwavari kuti kana uine motokari uye imba yakanaka, uyu watova mufaro. Zvichida izvi zvinobva muhurombo hunotyisa hwakatipoteredza. Nekuda kwekuti ndave nemakore gumi ndichigara muAmerica, ndinokwanisa kuenzanisa nekuongorora. Uye ndizvo zvandinoona. Vanhu vokuMadokero vanouya kwatiri vachitsvaka zvinhu zvomudzimu, nepo vokuNepal vachienda kuMadokero nokuti vanoda mufaro wokunyama. Dai zviri mukati mesimba rangu, chandaizoitira mwana wangu kwaiva kumuendesa kuVipassana. Asi kwete, anoti haana nguva, basa rakawandisa.
Iyi tsika kwatiri inosanganiswa nyore nyore neHinduism. Mabrahmin edu haana chaanotaura pamusoro peizvi. Kana uchida, dzidzira kune hutano hwako, ingova nemutsa uye chengeta mazororo ose zvakare.
Vipassana inondibatsira zvakanyanya, ndinoishanyira kechitatu. Ndakaenda kunodzidziswa kuAmerica, asi hazvina kufanana, hazvikushandure zvakanyanya, hazvikutsanangurire zviri kuitika zvakadzama.
Aiwa, hazvina kuoma kuti vakadzi vakura vafungisise. Tave takagara munzvimbo yelotus kwemazana emakore. Patinodya, kusona kana kuita chimwe chinhu. Nokudaro, vanambuya vedu vanogara nyore nyore munzvimbo iyi kweawa, iyo isingagoni kutaurwa pamusoro pako, vanhu vanobva kune dzimwe nyika. Tinoona kuti izvi zvakakuomerai, uye kwatiri zvinoshamisa.”
Mumwe mukadzi wekuNepal akanyora tsamba yangu yetsamba, akati aizondiisa pafacebook.
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Kosi yapera, takapiwa zvatakapfuura pamukova. Mafoni, makamera, camcorder. Vazhinji vakadzokera kumuzinda ndokutanga kutora mapikicha eboka kana kupfura chimwe chinhu. Ndakabata smartphone muruoko ndofunga. Ndaida chaizvo kuchengeta muti wemuzambiringa une michero yeyero kuseri kwedenga rakajeka. Kudzoka kana kusadzoka? Zvaiita sekuti kana ndikaita izvi -nongedza kamera pafoni pamuti uyu uye tinya pairi, zvino yaizoderedza chimwe chinhu. Izvi zvinotonyanya kushamisa nekuti muhupenyu hwemazuva ese ndinofarira kutora mifananidzo uye kazhinji kuzviita. Vanhu vaive nemacamera ehunyanzvi vaipfuura nepedyo neni, vakachinjana pfungwa nekudzvanya zvese zvakatenderedza.
Ikozvino kwave nemwedzi yakati wandei kubva pakupera kwekufungisisa, asi pandinoda, ndinovhara maziso angu, uye pamberi pavo pane muti wemuzambiringa une mazambiringa akajeka akatenderedza akatarisana nedenga rakajeka rebhuruu, kana grey cones Himalaya pane mhepo ine pink-tsvuku manheru. Ndinoyeuka kutsemuka kwemasitepisi kwakatitungamirira kuhoro yokufungisisa, ndinorangarira kunyarara nokudzikama kwehoro mukati. Nokuda kwechimwe chikonzero, izvi zvose zvakava zvakakosha kwandiri uye ndinozvirangarira pamwe chete nezvikamu kubva pauduku dzimwe nguva zvinorangarirwa - nekunzwa kweimwe rudzi rwemufaro wemukati mukati, mhepo uye chiedza. Pamwe rimwe zuva ndichadhirowa muti wemuzambiringa kubva mundangariro ndousungirira mumba mangu. Pane imwe nzvimbo iyo miranzi yezuva inowira kazhinji.
Chinyorwa: Anna Shmeleva.