Mangani mabasa makuru asina kuitwa, mabhuku haana kunyorwa, nziyo hadzina kuimbwa. Uye zvose nokuti musiki, ari mune mumwe nomumwe wedu, achatarisana ne "dhipatimendi rehurumende yemukati". Saka anodaro chiremba wepfungwa Maria Tikhonova. Muchikamu chino, anotaura nyaya yaDavid, chiremba akaisvonaka uyo akapedza makore 47 chete achidzidzira hupenyu hwake, asi haana kukwanisa kusarudza kutanga kurarama.
Department of internal bureaucracy. Kune munhu wega wega, iyi sisitimu inokura nekufamba kwemakore: muhuduku, vanotitsanangurira maitiro ekuita zvinhu zvekutanga nemazvo. Kuchikoro, vanodzidzisa kuti mangani maseru aunoda kudzoka kumashure kusati kwatanga mutsara mutsva, pfungwa dzipi dzakarurama, dzisina kururama.
Ndinoyeuka chiitiko: Ndine makore mashanu uye ndakanganwa kupfeka siketi. Kuburikidza nemusoro kana nemakumbo? Pamutemo, hazvina basa kuti - ndoipfeka sei uye ndizvozvo ... Asi ndakamira mukusagadzikana, uye kunzwa kwekutya kunokwira mukati mangu - ndinotya zvakanyanya kuita chimwe chinhu chakaipa ...
Kutya kwakafanana kwekuita chimwe chinhu chakaipa kunoratidza mutengi wangu.
David ane makore 47 okukura. Chiremba ane tarenda uyo akadzidza zvese zvakaomesesa zvemunda wakavanzika wemushonga - endocrinology, David haagone kuve "chiremba chaiye" chero nzira. Kwemakore 47 oupenyu hwake, ave achigadzirira nhano yakarurama. Inoyera, inoitisa kuongororwa kwekuenzanisa, inoverenga mabhuku epfungwa, uzivi. Mavari, anowana maonero akasiyana zvachose, uye izvi zvinomutungamirira mumamiriro ezvinhu asingatsungiririki ekuzvidya mwoyo.
Makore 47 oupenyu hwake, ari kugadzirira nhano yakarurama
Nhasi tine musangano usina kujairika. Chakavanzika chinova pachena nenzira isina kujairika.
— David, ndakaziva kuti uri kurapwa nemumwe muongorori asiri ini. Ndinoreurura kuti izvi zvakandishamisa zvikuru, zvinoratidzika zvakakosha kwandiri kuti tikurukure mamiriro ezvinhu aya mukati mehutano hwekurapa kwedu, - ndinotanga hurukuro.
Ipapo imwe mhando yepfungwa-optical illusion inomuka: murume akatarisana neni anodonha kaviri, ova mudiki achitarisana neseri kwesofa iri kuwedzera. Nzeve, idzo dzainge dzisingambozvitarisi, dzakangoerekana dzaputika uye dzichipisa. Mukomana akatarisana ane makore masere, haachisiri.
Pasinei nekuonana kwakanaka nemurapi wake, pasinei nekufambira mberi kuri pachena, achiri kusava nechokwadi kuti iyi ndiyo sarudzo yakarurama uye anotanga kurapa neni, tisingatauri kuti handisi ndoga murapi, ndichinyepa kumibvunzo yandinogara ndichibvunza pamusangano wekutanga.
Murapi akanaka anofanirwa kunge asina kwaakarerekera uye anobvuma, asi mune iyi nyaya, hunhu uhwu hunondisiya: kusaita sarudzo kwaDavid kunoratidzika kwandiri imhosva.
— David, kwauri zvinoita sekuti N haasi murapi akanaka. Neniwo. Uye chero mumwe murapi haazove akanaka zvakakwana. Asi izvi hazvisi nezvedu, yapfuura, yazvino, yeramangwana, yekufungidzira varapi. Zviri pamusoro pako.
Uri kuti handina kukwana here?
— Unofunga kuti ndizvo here?
- Zvinotaridzika ...
“Zvakanaka, handifungi kudaro. Ini ndinofunga kuti uri chiremba anoshamisa anoshuvira kurapwa chaiko, akamanikana mumamiriro erabhoritari yemishonga. Unondiudza izvi pamusangano wega wega.
- Asi ini handina ruzivo rwekuita zvekiriniki ...
— Ndinotya kuti kuedza kunotanga nekwakatangira… Ndiwe wega unofunga kuti zvakakurumidza kwauri.
Asi ichokwadi chaicho.
“Ndinotya kuti chinhu chimwe chete chaune chokwadi nacho muhupenyu huno kusachengeteka kwako.
David akachenjera haachagoni kufuratira chokwadi chokuti dambudziko rekusaita sarudzo rinongotora hupenyu hwake. Inoshandura kuita sarudzo, kugadzirira, kudziya-up.
“Ndinogona kukutsigirai musangano wamunoshuvira. Ndinogona kutsigira sarudzo yekugara murabhoritari uye kutsvaga nguva yakakodzera. Iyi isarudzo yako chete, basa rangu ndere kukubatsira kuona ese ekudzivirira maitiro anodzosera kumashure kufamba. Uye kuenda kana kusaenda, hazvisi zvangu kuti ndisarudze.
Chokwadi, Dhavhidhi anofanira kufunga. Nekudaro, nzvimbo yangu yemukati yakavhenekerwa nemarambi ekutsvaga uye nenziyo dzekukunda. Achibuda muhofisi, David akavhura gonhi nechimiro chitsva chose. Ndinokwesha zvanza zvangu: “Aizi yatsemuka, vakuru vedare. Chando chapwanyika!
Iko kusagoneka kwesarudzo kunomubvisa hupenyu hwake uye kuhushandura kuita sarudzo pachayo.
Takaita misangano yakati wandei yakatevera kuti tishande neimwe zera rehupenyu hwaDavid, ipapo zviitiko zvakati wandei zvakaitika.
Kutanga, paaiva nemakore 8, ambuya vake vakafa nekuda kwekukanganisa kwechiremba.
Chechipiri, aive mukomana wechiJudha munharaunda yevashandi yeUSSR muma70s. Aifanira kuwirirana nemirau nezvirongwa zvikuru kupfuura zvimwe.
Zviripachena, chokwadi ichi kubva munhoroondo yehupenyu hwaDavid chakaisa hwaro hwakasimba hwe "bazi rake rehutongi hwemukati."
Dhavhidhi haaoni muzviitiko izvozvo kubatana nezvinetso zvaari kusangana nazvo panguva ino. Anongoda izvozvi, kana nyika yake iri nzvimbo yakanaka kune chiremba, kuti ave akashinga uye pakupedzisira ararame hupenyu chaihwo.
Kuna David, mhinduro inoshamisa inopindirana yakawanikwa: akapinda munzvimbo yemubatsiri wechiremba mukiriniki yega. Yakanga iri mutambo wakasikwa kudenga: David, uyo akanga akazara nezivo uye chido chokubatsira vanhu, uye chiremba wechidiki ane chido akabatanidzwa mumitambo yeTV nemufaro uye akanyora mabhuku, achipa David maitiro ose.
Dhavhidhi akaona kukanganisa uye kusakwanisa kwemutungamiriri wake, izvi zvakamukurudzira kuti ave nechivimbo mune zvaaiita. Murwere wangu akatsvanzvadzira kumitemo mitsva, inochinjika uye akawana kunyemwerera kunofadza kwazvo, umo hunhu hwakasiyana, hwakasimba hwakanga hwatoverengwa.
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Pane chokwadi chinopa mapapiro kune avo vakagadzirira: pane imwe nguva iwe une ruzivo rwakakwana uye ruzivo rwekutora danho rinotevera.
Avo vanorangarira mubiography yavo matanho akatungamira mukukanganisa, kurwadziwa uye kuodzwa mwoyo vanozopokana neni. Kugamuchira chiitiko ichi sechinodikanwa uye chakakosha kuhupenyu hwako ndiyo nzira yekusunungurwa.
Zvicharambwa kwandiri kuti kune zviitiko zvinotyisa muhupenyu izvo zvisingambove chiitiko chinokosha. Hungu, zvamazvirokwazvo, kwete kare kare, kwakanga kune kutyisa kukuru nerima munhau yenyika. Mumwe wemadzibaba makuru epfungwa, Viktor Frankl, akapfuura nepakati pechinhu chakaipisisa - musasa wevasungwa, uye akazova kwete chete mwaranzi wechiedza kwaari, asi kusvikira nhasi anopa zvinoreva kune wese anoverenga mabhuku ake.
Mumunhu wose anoverenga mitsara iyi, pane mumwe munhu akagadzirira upenyu chaihwo, hunofadza. Uye nokukurumidza kana kuti gare gare, dhipatimendi rehurumende yemukati richaisa "chitambi" chinodiwa, zvichida nhasi. Uye kunyange ikozvino.
Mazita akachinjwa nekuda kwezvikonzero zvekuvanzika.